Last January, Jeremy and I were in the center of our storm. We were both drawing closer to Christ each day, to escape the unkind world we were facing. I heard a clear calling from God to "go". Without as clear of an understanding of what that meant, I continued to pray and look for opportunities around me to do something or go somewhere. But where could I go during such a time of uncertainty and trials with Jeremy's health? I could hardly think beyond each moment. The calling continued in daily bible readings, church sermons and prayer. To this day, I don't know ultimately where God is leading me to go, but I will continue to ask Him to lead my day.
In an effort to "go" without knowing exactly where, I took it literally and sought a race to run. I've only run one other race in my life... the Climb for Cancer's 5K in February of this year. So, I decided to take a challenge and run the Rock n' Roll Half Marathon on December 11. I've decided I'm going to "go" (13.1 miles to be exact) and pray for revelation as to what this calling means in the longer-term, while I train for the race.
A few weeks ago, Jeremy was helping me create an ipod playlist to run to during training. I've discovered a song by Josh Wilson, that speaks to my conviction to "go" and brings to light what may be a meaning of this calling God has put on my heart. God knows me so well, that he uses my love of music to speak to me and I love that:
"I don't want to live like I don't care. I don't want to say another empty prayer. I refuse to sit around and wait for some one else, to do what God has called me to do myself. I could choose not to move, but I refuse.
...So, if you say move, it's time for me to follow through and do what I was made to do. Show them who You are."
Here I am... One of so many others training for a half-marathon; and one of even more who are fundraising for a good cause. I could choose to believe my efforts won't make that much of an impact, or that I'm nagging friends, acquaintances and family to contribute to a "good cause" in spite of such difficult economic times. Or I can take this opportunity to do every little thing with all that I am and pray and believe that God will put people in my life through this training and fundraising that otherwise wouldn't have been; and I'll get to share with those people who God is to me -- who He can be to them.
So, I'm choosing to move. I'm going to fund-raise, recruit, train, and celebrate in a way that will show who God is to me.
So far, that's resulted in me being the top fundraiser for the Miami Rock n' Roll Team for Life group. So far, that's resulted in the creation of one of the best parties I've ever thrown...and the first charity event I've ever coordinated -- "Bunco to Beat Cancer," scheduled for October 22nd. It's resulted in stronger friendships with my training partners, who I can have meaningful and fulfilling conversations with during the long training runs. So far, it's resulted in a newfound hobby of running. And new, exciting conversations and experiences with my husband and family. Looks to me like I'm on the right track and I'm motivated to keep moving.
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